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something 2 u
03:06
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i cant say these words to anyone
so i guess ill sing them instead
theres a devil inside my body
and the hells inside my head
and i just want to be something to you
and i just want to be something more than this
its been a few days now
its couple of days
and these few days turn into a couple of weeks
soon we wont know eachother
and i just want to be something to you
and i just want to be something more than
this is the start of something new
me and you
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2. |
song 4 a guilty sadist
02:15
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this makes me feel like a weak man who thinks that he is strong
must i play the chauvanist to be the man you want
sweaty fingers push down on yr throat you say you like it rough
but it's hard to think i do this out of love
and from my own submissive pleasure i want to do just as you wish
but i slap your face too lightly when you ask me to make fists
kiss me softly do not bite we can explore like naughty kids
you say yr bored want dominating and i just stare and flinch
how rude of me to bring my thoughts into yr bedroom
Ii it condescending to be so scared i might hurt you
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3. |
salvia plath
01:39
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you said you hate yrself
so let me feed you strawberries off a plate i bought from a widow who was selling her husbands things
and we'll see if you still hate yrself
if you still hate yrself
i'll eat you out for an hour in yr room cause i love giving head
if you still hate yrself
we'll cut ourselves and swallow chunks of broken glass i don't care about finishing college
i'll buy the biggest tv that my credit card allows me we'll watch the food network for the rest of our lives
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say yes
02:17
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im in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
whos still around the morning after
we broke up a month ago and i grew up i didnt know
id be around the morning after
its always been wait and see
a happy day and then youll pay
and feel like shit the morning after
but now I feel changed around
and instead of falling down
im standing up the morning after
situations get fucked up and turned around sooner or later
i could be another fool or an exception to the rule
you tell me the morning after
crooked spin can't come to rest
im damaged bad at best
shell decide what she wants
ill probably be the last to know
no one says it til it shows
see how it is
they want you or they don't
say yes
im in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
whos still around the morning after
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its a shame about ray
03:07
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ive never been too good with names
the cellar door was open i could never stay away
i know its probably not my place
its either or im hoping for a simple way of saying
its a shame about ray
in the stone under the dust his name is still engraved
some things need to go away
its a shame about ray
if i make it through today
ill know tomorrow not to leave my feelings out on display
ill put the cobwebs back in place
ive never been too good with names but i remember faces
its a shame about ray
in the stone under the dust his name is still engraved
some things need to go away
its a shame about ray
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i don’t want to go to sleep
and i don’t want to dream
on a table or on the floor
in a car outside at night in the snow
waking up in someone else’s bed
something tells me i’m losing my head
i don’t want to leave
just dye my hair and sleep
the world is ending in my dreams
every week for the last few years
when it really ends they’ll fill my body with flames
you and i will be a household name
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7. |
angeles
02:50
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someones always coming around here trailing some new kill
says ive seen your picture on a hundred dollar bill
and what's a game of chance to you to him is one of real skill
so glad to meet you angeles
picking up the ticket shows theres money to be made
go on and lose the gamble thats the history of the trade
and if you add up all the cards left to play to zero
and sign up with evil angeles
dont start me trying now
cos im all over it angeles
i could make you satisfied in everything you do
all your secret wishes could right now be coming true
and be forever with my poison arms around you
no ones gonna fool around with us
no ones gonna fool around with us
so glad to meet you
angeles
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8. |
the days we lived as one
10:03
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9. |
lua
02:49
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I know that it is freezing but I think we have to walk
I keep waving at the taxis; they keep turning their lights off
But Julie knows a party at some actor's west side loft
Supplies are endless in the evening; by the morning they'll be gone.
When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
I get a coffee and the paper; have my own conversations
With the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning looks like shit.
And I know you have a heavy heart; I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it
But me I'm not a gamble you can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening, by the morning won't exist.
You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
You just keep going to the bathroom always say you'll be right back
Well it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening, by the morning is such a drag.
I've got a flask inside my pocket we can share it on the train
If you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening, by the morning seems insane.
and im not sure what the trouble was that started all of this
the reasons all have run away but the feeling never did
its not something i would recommend but it is one way to live
cause what is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is
whats so simple in the moonlight now is so complicated
whats so simple in the moonlight so simple in the moonlight
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memento mori
02:41
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everyone i love is going to die
and i will die as well.
i think about this before i sleep
and have since i was a child.
in my life will i make a difference
in my death will i be missed
will i be granted some sort of an afterlife
or will i just cease to exist
this fear makes me feel so naive
i wish that I could just accept
but im chilled by the redundancy of
thoughts collected but not kept
maybe im still a stupid little boy
too weak to understand what will come
i want to find peace of mind
maybe no mind is the answer to that conundrum
Oh I want to be a baby again.
Oh I want pure thoughts in my head.
Oh I want to be a baby again.
Oh I want to forget.
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stay in bed, sometimes turning to my right, until i close my eyes
this is not a song about sleep or death, it’s about something much smaller and paler than that
i’m not going to show it to my friends.
cause when i came home i’d lost thirty something pounds,
i didn’t leave my bed, i threw up in a bathroom in baltimore
before dancing with a girl i’ll probably never talk to again.
we won’t be friends.
and i won’t be nice to anyone because i don’t see why i should.
i don’t see the point, i won’t get clean for the rest of my life.
i won’t be nice
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13. |
come together
02:36
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14. |
better boy
03:02
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lets hold our heads up just tonight and pretend that we're okay
cause we're okay right
dear god i am still your son right
god damn it i need you
i don't know you at all anymore
and i wanted to feel something better than what i once knew
but i am alone tonight while the kids are out high
i am alone tonight
do you remember this like i remember you
i will wake up beside you someday when we're both alone and lonely someday when i find the time to be a better boy
ill be a better boy
cause if ive ever wanted one thing itd be the last two years of our lives back and if i could ever tell you something itd be that "i still love you"
"i will be a better boy if it means that you will stay here
i will be a better boy
a better boy"
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i dont know man it was like three am this is a really rough demo
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